Well, Hi, friends! 12w3d today and I had your standard 10 minute doppler and check appointment with the ob today (which I waited an entire 1 hr and 15 minutes for, UGH), but ALL LOOKS GOOD! Well, all sounds good when my doc quickly found the thump-thump-thump of my little one’s heartbeat. (ultrasound May 20th.
PHEW! Big sigh of relief over here 🙂 I simply cannot believe that we’re here already. I know that nothing is guaranteed, but it feels pretty great to be so close to the second trimester. Feeling pretty hopeful that come October we will have another little guy or girl. It feels…just…strange and simple and short and waaaay too lucky to only go through one first trimester instead of stopping and starting over 3 times like I did last time. What a difference. And, that’s not to say this time was easy, but it was very different and more straightforward unlike the shitshow that was my primary IF experience.
I haven’t been posting much. I’ve been feeling generally awful, exhausted, and anxious, none of which are things that I want to focus on or write about. I started a few posts over the last few weeks, but I annoyed myself and abandoned them. That’s how it goes with me and the first trimester. The little energy I do have I’ve focused on my child I do have and taking him to fun events and then trying to find things to tide my stomach over to not vomit. I’ve been in survival mode, but I haven’t forgotten you all. I hope you understand. But I am starting to feel better so I’ll be around more. Spring is finally starting to show its pretty face around here, so it’s time to do some spring cleaning and then head outside for a run/walk.